Special reminders

I feel like I need to apologize for my last post. I wasn't trying to complain about not getting love and support because the more and more I thought about it I really have had a lot. Its just that I am sad that people feel they can't talk to me about Harrison or what happened. It especially hurts when close family members and friends have never said one thing or felt comfortable enough to ask how we were doing or ask about Harrison. But today I thought a lot about how really blessed we have been through all of this. We've received so many emails, comments on our blog of support, calls, meals brought in, gifts, and more. It really made me happy to think that I have had lots of love and support through all of this. I have to remind myself that many people have probably not said anything either because they don't know what to say or that they really just don't think about Harrison and the situation on a daily basis like I do. But that is whats hard is that he is my baby boy even though he was only with us for 5 months and then we were only able to hold him for a few hours, he is apart of our family. That's why I did that post so that anyone out there knows that its ok to ask and talk to me or anyone in my situation about it. We may cry, we may not, really it just shows us that you care.
So today I was thinking about all the special things I have to remember Harrison by. I got out his box of remembrance that the hospital gave us. I have so many pictures to remember him by. At first I thought it was weird and I was a little uncomfortable when they started to take pictures of us and him, but now I cherish them so much. Also inside the box I have the clothes and hat he wore, the blanket he was wrapped in, the measuring tape they used to measure him with, and the bear(above) that he was holding while we held him at the hospital. He is buried in different clothes, holding another bear, and was wrapped in a blanket from my company Sweet Ruby. My mom had the great idea of making him a white one, they are small 15x15 security blankets but it was the perfect size to wrap him in. I love that he has his own.
I love that I have his tiny perfect foot and hand prints. I also have his hand and foot molds that the ladies from Share took of him. One of my best friends Sarah, knitted Harrison the booties above just as a sweet memento, she's made each of my kids a pair and I love that she remembered and took the time to knit Harrison some. She also gave me a shadow box so that I can place some of these items inside. I had many people give me Willow Tree figurines which are so special and my sister-in-law took pictures of the funeral and kept some of the flowers and dried them for me. These are just some of the things that I never would of thought of but I am so grateful I have now. I have so many wonderful things to help me remember that he really was here. I love every single one of them.

I also have two amazing necklaces that I wear everyday, of course not at the same time.

A few weeks after I had Harrison I received a package from two of my aunts. They sent me the necklace above. The larger circle says, "Families are Forever", and the smaller ones have each of my children's names on them. I broke down crying when I received it. What I didn't realize was that one of my aunts had a baby over 20 years ago like Harrison, named Eric. The sad thing is that back then they didn't do much. I am pretty sure she was able to see him, but only for a moment and she was not able to bury him or spend as much time as she needed. Back then people didn't even talk about it. It made me hurt so much for her because I don't know what I would've done without the time I had spent with my little boy and being able to honor him and bury him. I am so grateful to both of my aunts for their love and support.

Shortly before I received that necklace from my Aunts, the owner of Julian and Co, sent Trent and I both a necklace, although he's not much of a necklace wearer he does love that she thought of him as well. I did a post a few weeks after I had Harrison on our family blog about how much I wanted a necklace with all my kids names on it. The owner of Julian and Company was getting so many hits from me posting about it that she sent me a necklace. She was so touched by our story and loss of our little boy. What an amazing women. I am so grateful for the love she showed to me, I didn't even know her. The necklace has all my kids names and on the back it has their birth date, weight, and height. I cherish both necklaces and have a hard time choosing between the two of them but I wear them both all the time. Whenever I am wearing them and Ruby is sitting on my lap she plays with them and says, "Harry, Ruby, Huddy." I love that my kids remember.

Then a few weeks ago a friend of mine that I had not seen in years but we kept in contact through the blog world, made me this picture just because she wanted too, thanks Patti. She lost a baby early on in her pregnancy as well so she knows my pain. She took the words from the song Trent wrote for Harrison and placed them altogether with some photos I had put on our blog, I can't wait to get it printed.

I love my baby boy and miss him but because of all the people out there that love us, they gave us some special things to remember him by. Thank you so much, you will never know how much it really means to us.